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Tuesday, 27 October 2009

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    Still DYING to see the Face of GOD!

    It is late and day 10 of my journey to see His face is coming to an close.

    Yet the journey continues...runtheRace

    When this all began the Lord gave me a time frame, which I have rarely received from Him for anything. This journey is one of the hardest I've endured. So much of my flesh is still in the way. So much of "me" is still preventing me from being FULL of HIM! I need to be so empty of myself that when I cry out for Him to fill me with His Spirit I can receive every bit humanly possible! To think I would hold onto any part of my sinful nature and therefore not have ALL of Him...well, it makes me cry. Tears of repentance, tears of revelation, tears of change and sacrifice....

    Sacrifice? Really, what do we have to sacrifice that would even come close to what He laid down for us? God sent His ONLY son to die the most horrible brutal painful unimaginable public death for me...what do I have to give in return? Even while I am learning to DIE and give Him my all...I can't even do that without His help. Amazing...just amazing. God is so gracious that He is helping me die to myself so I can live for Him and try to thank Him for all He's done for me. We can't even do that without Him. Lord you are so awesome!

    As far as the details, this journey has been taking me deeper than I had originally thought it would. I knew it would be hard, but I am finding myself cry out more and more for God to HELP ME! Help me obey His commands, help me SHUT my mouth, help me do the right thing, help me be ALL I can be with Him....HELP ME! My dying for His glory and for More of Him is still sadly, in many ways, all about me. Strange isn't it?

    Praise God that He is not nearly as hard on me as I am or I'd be dead in a whole other way. His love and grace amaze me more and more every day. The strength that He gives me! The hope! The love! Lord I am at a loss for words.....

    So, the journey to see HIS FACE continues...by His grace....I press on.

    More thankful with every passing moment for who God really is and can be when we are out of the way allowing Him to be God in our lives,hearts,minds....

    His ways really are so much higher than ours.

     

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Friday, 23 October 2009

  • Update 2 day #6 Dying to see the Face of GOD!

    Hebrews 11:1-3

    Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. This is what the ancients were commended for. By faith we understand that the universe was formed at God's command, so that what is seen was not made out of what was visible.

     

    As my flesh continues to die, my old ways continue to be exposed by His glory and changed by His grace and with His strength....this verse encourages me!

    I may not be able to see the outcome of this work YET but I can trust that HE does some great things when we can't see Him working. AND when it looks like He has NOTHING to work with. I feel like NOTHING and praise God that means He can do "His Thing".

    I press on....tears and all....I press on!

Tuesday, 20 October 2009

  • update 1 day 3 dying to see the face of God

    By His grace I have been obeying, learning and growing in faith.

    Faith for the impossible!

    My flesh is increasingly uncomfortable and my heart heavy with conviction

    as the light of His glory shines into the dark spots of sin my flesh tried to ignore.

    Thank you Lord for the chance to turn from my former ways, leave my sin at

    your blood stained feet and race onward toward the goal!

    Every fiber of my flesh must go...must die!

    Until I see His glorious face......

Saturday, 17 October 2009

  • Dying to see the Face of God.....

     

    Exodus 33:18-20 "And Moses said, “Please, show me Your glory.” Then God said, “I will make all My goodness pass before you, and I will proclaim the name of the LORD before you. I will be gracious to whom I will be gracious, and I will have compassion on whom I will have compassion.” But He said, “You cannot see My face; for no man shall see Me, and live.”
     
    I understand in many ways this portion of scripture means something different than what it does to me today. I read this point of view in a great book (title of which I sadly cannot recall at this moment) and this point of view...is totally where I'm at today. I need so badly to see the face of God. To hear Him louder than EVER before. To feel the warmth of His embrace as often as I once did. Hear His heartbeat so clearly that my heart begins to beat in tune with His. The hunger for MORE of the Lord is growing and overtaking me....I am once again realizing just how desperate for HIM I really am. I am not "becoming desperate" I think we all live there...it's a matter of looking it in the face and dying to myself enough to say "God, I am NOTHING without you!"
     
    I can honestly say that these times of feeling so empty and hungry often lead me to amazing new experiences with the Lord. The more I run to Him, run after Him and do so without ceasing the more I want of Him. He is such an amazing BrideGroom and I canNOT get enough of HIM. His love overwhelms me! His grace leaves me in awe. His faithfulness and willingness to forgive and FORGET send me to my knees in tears. I want MORE...I feel as if life is not liveable without MORE. Life without MORE is so empty regardless of how "full" my days feel....without the fullness of my God manifested...I have nothing! He is my ALL and ALL!
     
    As I've been crying out, seeking His face, and pressing in He is coming nearer. God of the universe is coming closer to me as I seek to be closer to Him. AMAZING! Leaves me in tears and without words...
     
    However, the nearer He comes, the more my flesh is revealed...and it is horribly ugly and dirty. Selfish, prideful, unforgiving, too unbelieving, unthankful,....when our flesh is coming closer to His Glory....the Refining Fire starts to burn hotter than any fire I've ever felt. And yet, deep within my being, I have peace. Peace that truly passes understanding. I trust HIM! In my heart....deep within my soul....I trust my JESUS! And that is enough....He gave up His life for me....I can chose to lay my life down daily for Him! I must!
     
    As I've been listening to Abba's sweet voice I've heard Him ask some things of me that I am honestly scared to obey....very. BUT even more scared to disobey! (I pray often for more fear of God to fill me! so the "scared" is not the bad meaning often used in wordly terms) I am blessed to be so hungry for HIM that even the seemingly hardest request from the mouth of my Maker MUST be obeyed.
     
    There are things, habits, attitudes,heart issues...in the way of me seeing HIS FACE....I can't live like that. I can't live without HIM. More of HIM!
     
    Tomorrow starts day one of my "training" and "reckoning myself dead" DAILY (not just when it seems like the holy thing to do etc). To have the fullness of God manifested in my life, heart,marriage, relationships, I have to give God the fullness of me....ALL of me. Even those things that I thought I'd never be able to let go of. The commands I never thought I could obey. The character flaws I figured I'd always have just cause they are "me"....DIE!
     
    I die so that I may live...to die is gain and to live is CHRIST! Life lived any other way is POINTLESS and WASTED.
     
    So Lord....I lay down my life. I repent for holding back those things you've revealed to me. I repent for not trusting Your strength to help me gain victory. I repent for not living a life truly thankful of all you've done for me. My actions have shown that too well. Forgive me for taking my salvation for granted. I never want to do that again Daddy. I must decrease Lord so that you may increase! More of YOU and less of me!!!! Thank you for being my strength and ever present help in time of trouble. Your warm open arms of love are there for me to run to and Lord...I'm running! I love you Abba! You are such an amazing God....words cannot describe.....help me obey one step at a time. Only by grace can this ever be done.....
     
    Here we go.......less of me and MORE OF HIM! I will SEE HIS FACE!

Tuesday, 15 September 2009

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